Sunday, August 28, 2005

3 things

three names you go by:
1. simonette
2. sim
3. monet
three screen names you have had:
1. moneng
2. ganda
3. petra
three physical things you like about yourself:
1. eyes..(japanese like)
2 nails..wala lng
3. arms?!
three physical things you don't like about yourself:
1. face
2. legs
3. body
three parts of your heritage:
1. filipino
2. spanish
3. japanese
three things that scare you:
1. death
2. ghost
3. being rejected by the one you like the most..LIKE
three of your everyday essentials:
1. hanky
2. pera
3. pulbo
three of your favorite musical artists:
1. 3rd eye blind
2. 3 doors down
3. chemical romance
three of your favorite songs:
1. here without you
2. semi charmed life
3. helena
three things you want in a relationship:
1. wala...corny!
2. sex daw sabi ni jemy b
3. pera
three lies and truths in no particular order:
lies:
1. lahat ng tao matalino
2. wala akong maisip
3. maganda ako
truth:
1. God is good all the time
2. i am who i am
3. maganda ako
three physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to you:
1. eyes
2. hair
3. legs...leeegggggssssssssssss...flawless dapat...
three of your favorite hobbies:
1. sleeping
2. surfing
3. eating
three things you want to do really badly now:
1. learn how to skate board
2. learn to play r-e-a-l drums
3. sleep
three careers you're considering/you've considered:
1. med-tech/ doctor
2. artist
3. agogo danserrr/ porn star!
three places you want to go on vacation:
1. puerto
2. bora
3. pagugpod
three kid's names you like:
1. maria angela
2. angel
3. allan
three things you want to do before you die:
1. have sex..charot! if ever..i wana die virgin..=]
2. magpaalam sa mga minamahal
3. see daniel radcliffe and david beckham...
three ways that you are stereotypically a boy:
1. i walk like a boy does
2. I do what boy does-playing and all that stuffs
3. i shave..nyhahha! charot
three ways that you are stereotypically a girl:
1. i do my make up..nagmamake up pa pla ako sa lagay na toh?!
2. i love boys...the?!
3. i have a vagina..sorry for the word
three celeb crushes:
1. francis
2. chang chung yen
3. daniel radcliffe
three person you would like to take this top three's:
1. thomas
2.samahang T
3. me

Friday, August 26, 2005

check this one out!


that's me and my dad...hihi..i think its our only picture together.wala nako mahanap na iba eh..hehe..ahhihihi..=]
kamukha ko noh?! ginagaya ko siya that time..=] nyahahha! like father like son...charot!

Staring At The Sun


Daylight on my shoulder
Makes me feel alive
You kept me standing in your shadow
And it's a cold cold place to hide

I'm running away from this messed up place
I'm breaking free, yeah yeah

I'm tired of staring at the sun
Can't stand the way you put my eyes so I can't see
Stealing every breath I breathe
You push me into overdrive
And I don't need this kind of light coz now I'm done
You took everything while I was staring at the sun

I know you won't leave me
But just turn and walk away
I'm tired of when you kick me around
Trying to kill my dreams and break me down
But I won't hang around

I'm running away from this messed up place
I'm breaking free, yeah yeah

I'm tired of staring at the sun
Can't stand the way you put my eyes so I can't see
Stealing every breath I breathe
You push me into overdrive
And I don't need this kind of light coz now I'm done
You took everything while I was staring at the sun
I was staring at the sun

Daylight on my shoulder
I know its time to run
Yes I know its time to run

I'm tired of staring at the sun
Can't stand the way you put my eyes so I can't see
Stealing every breath I breathe (stealing every breath I breathe)
You push me into overdrive
And I don't need this kind of light coz now I'm done
You took everything while I was staring at the sun
Yeah, yeah staring at the sun
You took everything while I was staring at the sun

halo halo

supposed schedule

last wednesday, august 24 2004 was supposed to be our 5th novena to Our Lady of Help..at marunog akong humingi ng tulong...at marunong po akong magdasal...but something just went out of ordinary...ang inti...ang dameng tao...dumilim bigla paningin ko...sheet..nahihilo ako....take note...that happend while we were singing "Ama namin" as ST would say it..sinapian ng rebulto...at may tumulong saken..it was so nice of Rose Tiangco, the men behind me, and most especially to Angelyn Grace Mabao...grabe..ang bait nila..as in....ewan ko ba..minsan nahihilo na lng ako...at imposible akong buntis..helo?! gabi yun! and helo?! wala akong syooooootaaaaa!

thursday

and here comes thursday...and dameng test...what to expect from me?! wala..as usual..hindi nanaman ako nag arl dahil sa pangyayari kahapon...grabe! nakatulog na kasi ako pagdating ko dito sa bahay...8:30 yun at nagising ako ng 6am in the morning eh yung class ko 7:30...so wala ng time di ba?! as angelyn said. sa church pa lng tulog na ako..hehe..=] pero sa totoo lng...wala talaga akong interest mag aral..hay ewam ko bah.....

friday

arrrgggg!!!!!!!!! sa wakas!!!!! friday na!!!!!!! we had our practical in Histo and Micro lab...ang masasabe ko lng..ahhh..ewan...hehe..hindi nanaman kasi ako nakapag aral...im not goofing when i say "hindi nanaman ako nag aral" as in..hindi talaga....pagdating ko kasi sa bahay...kakain ako...maliligo..manonood..so nakakapgod! kulang ako lage sa tulog, though i sleep at 10 pm the most and wake up at uhm....530-6 am....im setting the alarm clock though..but still...kahit anong tunog ng alarm clock eh hinid ako magising....
this friday, as usual, is another day to hallucinate...from my Med tech laws and ethics class to histology lecture class...i cant help my eyelids to fall, coil, whatever, whenever i attend these classes...damn pare...malala pa sa drugs...pero nakakaantok talaga sila...as in yung mga profs....but i made a promise to Jennifer lee Chua that i will never ever sleep in class again, and im just keeping the promise....thats why im always battling in this war...
ang masama...ay nakita ako ni Ivan Lacson na inaantok...at pinagtawanan daw niya ako..hell i care..hehe..eh sa inaantok na talaga ako! siguro..kahit isang buwan ako matulog tapos aattend ako ng class nila...aantukin at aantukin pa rin ako..ewan ko bah!
at natapos nah......prelims nah....

tomorrow comes saturday

hello saturday...uh?! saturday?! uh?! im confused, bewildered,and disoriented and isnt these words mean the same thing?! bast yun na yun...kasi naman...pag natutulog ako ng friday..pag gising ko...sunday nah...like?! asan na yung saturday?! hindi ko na nararamndaman ang sabado....parang sunday agad..then monday ule...arrggghhh..sakit sa ulo

moon

moon will not be alone this saturday early morning...mars will be with it..and i hope to see it....=] sana hindi pa ako tulog nun....hay....buti pa si moon..me dumadating na kasama kahit ilang years ang dadaan..at least me nakaksama....

missing?!

diko alam kung namimiss ko siya...at sinong siya?! ewan ko...parang minsan..hindi mo iniexpect na tatawag...ska siya tatawag..pag iniintay mo naman yung tawag..di naman tumatawag..pag inaakala mong me bago nanaman siyang syooooota wala naman...pero pag filing kong ako ule...hindi naman...hay! gulo!...
ohhhhh tukso!!! layuan mo akoooooo!!!

mansion

word of the week: mansion
ambition of the week: to have a mansion
like of the week: mansion
ove of the week: to dream having a mansion
i sound materialistic dont i?! but however i sound... i still want to have a mansion...all alone in that mansion... i can leave without a husband (in the future) as long as i have a mansion and cars.... just those two, and ill live happy till the end! i dont know whats with the mansion..but i want to feel the empty feeling being in this empty world... i want to feel the sadness alone... i want to have peace alone... travel alone... para tipid...magastos pag me kasama ka...hahhaahha!

ayun lng...
kahit inaantok nako...hindi ako aantukin kasi lalabas na si mars!

Saturday, August 20, 2005

daddy's girl

whenever im sad, i use to call my dad though his not physically with us anymore. i cired over a lot of senseless things this month. being alone, something like that. but i was wrong, i am never alone... one time, i cried so hard that i wished my dad to visit me..and he just did... im not really sure, but i was aware then that the temperature was getting low, like someone is beside me and i was saying "dady wag kang magpapakita saken" i know i said those words..i just know it..freaky dude..the freakiest day of my horror life...well not really day...night i should say.

namiss ko siya bigla..

my dad was a seaman, a chief engineer. he used to be the greatest and he will be forever...he would give me every material thing i desire..bike, dresses, shoes, etc... i remember, he bought me my own bike because my bros wouldnt allow me to ride in their bike... he treated me like a princess. he would protect me from those who would like to harm me; my evil brothers. he would let me do things i want to do. we would go to places everytime he will arrive. maybe, if dad is still alive, i would have gotten into a taekwando class, ballet class, play billiards, have my own car..everything...

pero hindi eh...

no one is here to protect me now...no one to give me everything i want... no one to carry me on his back...no one to treat me like a princess..to one to call dad...

i dont know why i'm writing this thing...maybe its because im sad...feeling alone..or maybe...i juts miss takling with mom...we havent had that real talk since we fought about something...stupid thing....

when my dad died, my mom carried all the burdens...we were still young then, so we couldnt help her.. i saw that she tried to give us the things that dad tried to gave us... then she turned into the greatest..

my mom was my first dance and she's the only person whom i allow to hold my hands. she would dance with me whenever i ask her why havent i experienced dancing with a guy. we would hold hands if were in the mall. we laugh about crazy things. but she had been so unfair lately... and im going to far... hehe...akin na lng toh...ihihih..kahit na bitin ako...hay!

inaantok nako...
wala lng...

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some things once you do, they can never be undone

be careful at what you wish for

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Sunday, August 14, 2005

muffler

hay naku!!! nakakainis yung kapitbahay namen na may bagong muffler...
grrrrr!
diko tuloy nasubaybayan yung tsismaks tungkol kay jolina magdangal at marvin agustin about the extra challenge.grrrr!!! yan! kasalanan niya! pano ko pa malalaman kung ano nangyari! fave pair ko pa naman yung dalawang yun!!!


kayo ba naman...love team na sinubaybayan niyo mula sa gimik-flames the movie-at kung ano ano pa...tapos biglang masisira lahat ng pangarap ko dahil sa muffler ng kapitbahay?! SOOOO IMMATURE!!! grrrrr!!!

la lng...

Saturday, August 13, 2005

single blessedness

some people really never fail to piss me... these past few weeks vj heart evangelista annoyed me, something like that, but im not saying that she annoys me all the time. i watch her show my myx not because of her but because of the music. while i was watching that show, she was telling about her being "single"---on philippine television like "what the?!" yeah, i admit she's pretty and all that, but the fact that she's telling about her singleness on tv bothers me. you might say "heck, why do you care?!"

for me..*just my opinion*being single is a gift...though we were created and destined to be with someone, being single is something to be proud of. think of it. you can go anywhere you want, do whatever things you desire, talk with other people, see other people without any restriction...i mean..hey! being single is being FREE!!!

but i do, truly respect people who are happy being someone. before and that was long long time ago, i had someone too. i tried to accept it and it felt great. its like being reborn. i thought i'll have that feeling for the rest of my life, but some cretain things are not really meant for me. i tried...i gave my all. well, not really my all *you know what i mean* but still i SUCK. yeah! i SUCK!!! its like i was being someone im not, and im not good at it. but i always find my butt into it...

my classmate: cynthia elaine, asked us if we see ourselves growing old with someone. the weird thing is that everyone said NO. haha! funnny! but seriously, i really dont see myself being with someone. i dont fancy it right now. all i want right now is to get the hell out of this place. have a job. mansion. money and all that. like, i can live without someone as long as i have money. freak eh?!

hahahaha!!! wala lng...

Monday, August 08, 2005

magaling ka ba sa kama?!

yesterday was the freakiest of the freakiest day of my life...it gave me goosebumps that ran up and down my spine...

una kasi..mejo depress ako kahapon..as in iyak iyak pa ako...kaso salamat kay lea...napatawa niya ako sa sinend niyang kowt..ewan ko kung kowt yun oh ginawa niya..hehehe..peace tayo!

*araw araw daming problema, tumingin ako sa langit at sumigaw, "sana mamatay na lang ako" eh naisip ko na virgin pa ako sumigaw ule ako, "lord joke lng po ;oc*

awareness nga naman..at dahil jan nasundan pa ng isa..at ng isa pa..at hanggang ngayong umaga..hehe.=]

me and a friend of mine talked over the phone last night..and it was kinda weird coz napunta kame sa usapang yun...about awareness..openness to fertility..and so on..what ever you call it.basta yun..but dont get us wrong. napag usapan lng..=]

then suddenly, words came out of my mouth "ano ba meron sa mga taong magaling sa kama na binabalikan ng mga tao na mahilig sa kama?" haha! nakakatawa.pero hindi ko rin malaman kung ano anh dahilan kahit ilang tao na ang nag explain saken kung baket na malabo din ang explanation nila..."kasi ganun eh..iba kasi eh..ah..basta!" oh di ba..ang labo talaga...ang mas malabo dun..yung iba nasasaktan na nga pero hinahanap pa...woooow! did that just came out of the monitor?! hehehhe...curious lng po...i dont mean to offend others..pero curious lng po talaga ako...

eh kung pagalingan lang din naman sa kama..hindi ako papatalo!!! kahit anong posisyon kaya ko! kahatihaya..nakatuwad.nakatagilid.nakaupo.me unan man oh wala...nakakatulog ako ng mahimbing! eh pano yan?! nakakatulog din ako sa sahig.sa sofa.sa mga bench.sa ilalim ng puno...so does it mean..magaling din ako sa sofa, sa sahig, sa bench, sa ilalim ng puno?! well..you judge kung ano...pero ako..basta! magaling akong matulog sa kama...kung yung iba me insomia..saken hindi uso yun! kahit anong klasse ng cape ang ipainom mo saken..lalo akong aantukin...

now...if somebody would ask me magaling ako sa kama...yes! magaling ako! eh kayo?! what would you say if someone asked you magaling kayo sa kama?!

sarap matulog noh?!

Saturday, August 06, 2005

VOICES

alot of voices are dominating my mind right now...voices that want to cry, to shout, to sing, and lastly to simply die...

TO CRY

life had been so unfair ever since i entered this f*ckin world... and there's just this THING in me that makes me never understand the reasons...why?! life is so complicated- too over porwering to human means. tears run down everytime i think of THINGS that shouldn't be thought of . unfair...

TO SHOUT

"shout, shout shout it all out"
IM IN LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
woops! i should be careful in using the word love my from now on..but i just cant help it..IM IN LOVE! i had experienced the symptoms: tachycardia, weakening of the knees, sweating, hallucination...it is driving me crazy!!!! somebody inject me with some drugs to inhibit such!

MS. BALINGIT! NALAGLAG NA BA SA TALAMPAKAN MO ANG UTAK MO?!
pls....dont shout....

TO SING

no words can explain..i had always loved music...
BMW...
however...singing also reflects my hatred...wala lng.gusto ko lng sabihin yung hatred..heheheh

TO DIE

to die...it's self explanatory...very simple...