daddy's girl
whenever im sad, i use to call my dad though his not physically with us anymore. i cired over a lot of senseless things this month. being alone, something like that. but i was wrong, i am never alone... one time, i cried so hard that i wished my dad to visit me..and he just did... im not really sure, but i was aware then that the temperature was getting low, like someone is beside me and i was saying "dady wag kang magpapakita saken" i know i said those words..i just know it..freaky dude..the freakiest day of my horror life...well not really day...night i should say.namiss ko siya bigla..
my dad was a seaman, a chief engineer. he used to be the greatest and he will be forever...he would give me every material thing i desire..bike, dresses, shoes, etc... i remember, he bought me my own bike because my bros wouldnt allow me to ride in their bike... he treated me like a princess. he would protect me from those who would like to harm me; my evil brothers. he would let me do things i want to do. we would go to places everytime he will arrive. maybe, if dad is still alive, i would have gotten into a taekwando class, ballet class, play billiards, have my own car..everything...
pero hindi eh...
no one is here to protect me now...no one to give me everything i want... no one to carry me on his back...no one to treat me like a princess..to one to call dad...
i dont know why i'm writing this thing...maybe its because im sad...feeling alone..or maybe...i juts miss takling with mom...we havent had that real talk since we fought about something...stupid thing....
when my dad died, my mom carried all the burdens...we were still young then, so we couldnt help her.. i saw that she tried to give us the things that dad tried to gave us... then she turned into the greatest..
my mom was my first dance and she's the only person whom i allow to hold my hands. she would dance with me whenever i ask her why havent i experienced dancing with a guy. we would hold hands if were in the mall. we laugh about crazy things. but she had been so unfair lately... and im going to far... hehe...akin na lng toh...ihihih..kahit na bitin ako...hay!
inaantok nako...
wala lng...
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some things once you do, they can never be undone
be careful at what you wish for
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posted by cmon3t @ 8:48 PM
1 Comments:
monet! one of your nicest entry. your dad must have been so proud for you.
sweet nyo ng mom mo... (:
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