Tuesday, October 18, 2005

love according to lea

lately... ive been telling lea about me being lonely cause im missing someone not worthy to be missed... san ka pa?! im missing this guy who havent called me since... since! ehehhe... basta... miss.. misssssunderstood...

i admit im still shedding tears... i admit i havent moved on... hehe.. most of you dont know about this, cause i prefer solitude... hihi... im writing this thing for you to know what REAL LOVE is... for you to differentiate REAL from FAKE from lea's deep point of view... here it goes...

"ogag.. hindi dahil sa kanya ka natuto maging responsable.... tange.. una hindi mo siya mahal... minahal mo yung idea na mahal ka niya kaya naman akala mo mahal mo siya.. natuto ka maging responsable kasi akala mo maeron love pero wala naman pla... dont fall in love with the concept of love.. hindi yun pagiging esponsible and tinutukoy kong maturity..."

eh sa makulit akong kausap..kaya binigyan ako ni lea ng isang matinding analogy.... at eto yun...

"meron isang pogi..never siyang nakakita ng kahit anong prutas.. one day narinig niya masarap daw ang prutas na apple.. ok gets mu?! reply ka kung buhay ka pa text ko kasunod"

buhay pa ako..oh yan..nagtext nako

"tapos di naghanap siya ng apple, narinig niya na pula daw yun at bilog. nakita niay saging.. akala niya apple yun kasi masarap din kahit hindi pula at bilog.. edi masaya siya hanggang sa maubos... so parang ikaw si pogi. asa pamimitas ka pa lng ng saging, ne, bingi ka ba?! pula at bilog yun! humanap ka naman ng mejo malapet para hindi ka masaktan. wag ka masyado magtago. pero hinid pa rin siya apple.. ending nito hanggat ayaw mo itry yung mejo bilog at pula..di ka makakakita ng apple..puro saging lng yan..ako naman kahit puro orange, malapet lapet na... wag ka pakagaga sa saging lng.. mabuhay ka! humanap ka ng totoo kahit baka orange lng siya"

orange..prutas...where am i?!

'lage sad ending yun..we could never know unless we try.. kung matatakot ka lng lage.. wala kang makukuha.. ni hindi mo mararanasan dumaan sa mga oranges at santol.."

santol..patikim ng santol...eheheh..pano nasama ang santol?! koneksyon?!baliw talaga yun... eh sa makulit talaga ako...kaya inaway niya ako...

"hindi nga apple yun... saging lng yung dumating sayo.. wag mo na pansinin yung santol..naisip ko lng..kumain kasi ako kanina..at leat bilog yun..."

eh sa makulit talaga ako...

"hindi..kasi akala mo hindi mo alam pero totoo niyan ayaw molng alamnin kung baket mo siya nagustuhan.. pero meorn yan kasi hindi mo pa siya kilala.. ineng hindi po ito isang pelikula.. hinid lahat ng lalake na darating e prince charming talaga.. if i know hindi siya ang mahal mo bukod dun sa akala mo mahal.."

"xa...minahal mo din yung iniisip mong siya... at dahil nga hindi mo pa siya kilala... masyado ideal at kaprince-prince charming ang naiisip mong siya...hindi yun ang tinutukoy kong love..."

at dahil..naiiyak nako..kasi nagagalit siya saken...at dahil magpapa lab test nanaman ako...eh tingil na namen ang chikahan.... ayun...

sana naman... makumbinsi na ako....
makinig ka monet....
tama si lea...

posted by cmon3t @ 9:45 AM 1 comments

Monday, October 17, 2005

not my ordinary friday morning taxi ride

san ka pa?! ang haba ng title...

every wednesday and friday i usually ride a taxi to school cause i dont want to be late in my oh-so-boring medtech laws and ethics with laboratory management class...see my effort just to attend that class?! im sacrificing two hundred bucks a week just to see the prof, listen to his stories over and over again and to day dream...

it was october 7 then, just before my father's birthday when i had my super last taxi ride. wana know why it's my super duper to the nth level last taxi ride alone?! read on....

as i stepped into the cab, the driver asked me right away if i have a boyfrend. i didnt want to lie so i told him that i dont have one. i was reading some photocopy then cause will have an exam on REPRODUCTIVE SYSTEM later that day...

second question:"do you believe that i a have a third eye" freaky... then he told me that he's seeing 2 white dwarfs on our dining table in our old house in ilocos...super... then i started to believe... thinking that it is one of those once in a lifetime experience like what ive seen in movies... stupid me...

third question:"do you go to GAY BARS?"i was disrupted, like what the hell... i may look like a man but im really not... WHAT AN INSULT! he told me that he was once a gay dancer... or i should say...AGOGO dancer... better said... he also mentoined names like IAN VENERASYON, KUYA GERMS and CYNTHIA PATAG... according to his story, ian was once his colleague..and kuya germs and cynthia patag were his costumers...

i told him that i dont go to gay bars...

after that, he said that in my age..i should be open..aware.. he also told me that he can accompany me in gay bars in the name of experience...hell experience! i dont want to... ewi kiwi!!! grossssssssssss to the nth level!!!

and the grossiest part of that ride to wonderland is that he aksed me if i want to experience awareness... SOOOOOO GROOOOOSSSSSSS!!! he's 30 and im 18!!! was he expecting me to for me to do something that would satify him?..if he really have a third eye..or if he can foresee the future, he would have guessed that i find awareness as the grossiest thing in the world! that i would rather take drugs than to be aware...

he was insisting this openess to experience until we landed to wonderland, my skul, my precious, my...oh my.... why... THANK GOD...

thank God that im still alive and nothing happened in that freaking KIA cab... thank God that he didnt force me to do anything stupid... thank God that im safe.. thank God that im home now... still whole.. still me... still virgin... still single.. still... still...

no matter how bad the ride is.. im still thankful that i got high mark in our practical exam on REPRODUCTIVE SYSTEM kahit na nun lng ako nagreview!!! haha!

THANK GOD...

beware..aware... ware.. are.. re... e..... weeeiii..kiwei.... dont ride a KIA cab! most of all...GURLS: dont ride in a cab alone!!!!!!!!!!

posted by cmon3t @ 9:27 AM 1 comments