tama na ang pagurl mo!
Does anyone here ever felt like a pin cushion for once in their life? I did. Not just once but many times. And I recommend you to rather read this than watch any drama series,because there couldn’t be any more dramatic than this. so seat down, relax, pop some champagne and let me walk you through it.
I’m halfway on loosing myself. I got this energetic mind that never fails to battle each and every single war of analysis on how things happened, why, where and what. The pain is much comparable to being on a 2 hours serial extraction for 1 week with complete blood chemistry and bone marrow aspirate. Though I haven’t experienced those yet, I have witnessed those scenes fair enough to know how it felt.
First things’ first.I’m not yet really over that I was the one he chose. (yes, again). Seeing the type of girls he would want to date, he would want to be with, kills me. From the very tiny to the grandest details of the type of girl he like is not actually me. Just that thought kills me. Who would be braver enough to face that fact right in front of their fugly face?
I envy his friends. For sometimes I feel they are given more attention than I do. I’m not saying I love attention but it is just that I so feel out of his circle of close friends. I would love him to admit he have this close relationship with his dorm-mates which is obvious on their photos doing some stuffs together, but he keeps on denying it. This is another slap on my face like “hey I was fooling around, hello?! Can’t you see?” I know, I see I feel he’s having more fun when he’s with them; when they are talking sharing things, go on an outing, swimming and a lot more that I myself would want to experience with him. He even told me he cried once just to be with them on a picnic. Great. How would you feel? If he hasn’t even cried to be with you? If he could go out with friends but not with you? And the fact that his friends are judging your love for him? The friends whom he loves… the friends whom he treasures.. the friends whom who judged you without knowing a single thing on how your relationship is going. Would you also feel that they are given more attention than you do? And still say you love him so much? ako... OO...
posted by cmon3t @ 7:29 PM
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